Today is Sunday the 30th of July. It is 9:30am and everyone is still sleeping. We have been staying in Edinburgh for two weeks and we are leaving for our next destination in Fife today. I have started getting things ready to move along. 4 homes this month! Quite impressive.
As of Friday just past, Bruce and I no longer own Molly Maid Edinburgh. Bruce will continue to work with them until the end of August and from September, we will be Molly Maid free, for the first time in our 21 year journey together. Quite a momentous time in our lives! Did you know that Bruce picked me up for our first date in a Molly Maid car? It didn't end the way we hoped or planned, but it has definitely ended, and Bruce and I, like so many others, find ourselves starting again, with a fresh slate and two beautiful children.
My dream is my village. A community of healers and teachers. I see the community all around and I long to build the village and walk out my door each day to find myself in their company. To eat together and share the knowledge we are all carrying and holding. To expand the magic I can feel and help create more of this better world I dance for every day.
We have nothing and yet everything. I am rich and yet poor. I feel incredible joy but have met with despair many times on the path here. I am stronger than I have ever been, forged in the fires of my own personal hell, my shadow world and through staying present to greet each moment, eventually. This is my time, and it is so much more than that, it is our Time.
I have no doubt I will get my dream. It has been with me since I remember, in various guises, always the same feeling and outcome. Oneness. Harmony. Peace. Healing. Love. I will not shake this dream until the foundations are strong and the wheels are in motion.
And so to now, this moment. Creating a Better Reality through our intentions and dance. Day 942 of what has become an epic journey of stubborn perseverance and absolute commitment to the intention of manifesting this reality that I see in the dream world. I was certainly not strong enough when we started this project, I had lost my voice and was unable to take the rejection or loss of my dream being tangible. The last 941 days have stripped me bare of everything I had, hoped, expected, desired and forced my complete surrender to the joy of each moment of now. It is a whole different way of being than before. I have my voice now. There is nothing left to be taken that hasn't been challenged and been let go. There is me and my dream, my love, my happiness and my absolute knowing that I am exactly where I am meant to be and always have been. I am looked after and supported in ways I could not perceive before, until I jumped from the cliff at the end of the line and held my arms out to fly and found wings. Not before scuffing myself along the ground I may add, and in truth we are still there, bumping along but I have my wings and feel them and I can sense we are started the ascent to soar. This is definitely the most exciting part of living so far. Building on my 40 years and having no fear of failure of losing anything. Knowing I have so much.
I may have things I want to do, like taking my kids to Disneyland, owning my own home, travelling Scotland and the world, but what is yearning in me is to build my village and apart from that, I am walking open handed to the sky, bare feet to the Earth and in awe of the magnificent cosmos present in our every molecule, existence and moment. The path used to be straight and now it is blind. Holding faith, or perhaps I should say, the faith holds me as I move forward each day in time.
Thank you for being present with us as we share this journey with you, unseeing and yet sensing and knowing. Dancing in faith every day, creating the dream, with you.
Time to move along, 10:10am. Seems like a great number!
Thank you for listening. I hope August 2017 brings us all closer to our dreams in wonderful ways.
Carol.
